This is probably gonna be my last blog on this site

I don't feel like doing the blogspot thing anymore at the moment if you want to contact me do so at my current profile on myspace:http://myspace.com/jray4real if you want to know something i may not say because i ain't nyb no offense yet i am so private right now with who i am the past is not me i may still do music yet i am not sayin for that gives away too much.

They Got Alot Of NERVE(What's up with the world)

I tried re-adding her yet no luck
So wanting to discard of my blogspot site,the myspace accounts and the youtube one also and i am not gonna probably tell anybody what i do next i really can't just like go out on the internet and speak my heart out some think of it as an offense not as a good presence you know

january is over,february should've been gone and march should resurrect the time of me and brie i am so tired of being myself anymore and being tired of the curse that my last name hangs on me it is such a tragedy my last name exists and that i am not some place else one place to say yet the next time i talk to brie i hope to God i will for i love her more than this life and i just wanna die sometime's

I hate being alive yet why hate being alive

Yet if you was me and was in my shoes you would too

Mankind = Unkind

I am so tired of my brain for it is driving me insane

Think what you want,yet i am not happy

The world throws me left and right my body feels like it's chained up

I am so tired of life and the fact that Virginia is becoming more of a curse

than a blessing

I blame no one but the people in my area for that

My cousins disowned me and my father is unjust yet oh well people can stay that way just leave me out of their sick ways

Yah i've changed and so has my music yet what has the same is how i feeeeeeel about brie God have mercy you know me please i dislike like i have had a hard time even getting a relationship even back when i was a teenager why am i even alive if i am not with brie why should i even have to suffer why do you allow me to why can't i just break the chains and go see her and people who know her just leave me alone

Route:Into the unknown(a story of one man who wants to talk to her,yet sadly is havin a difficult time)

A state of mind
Not far beyond from out of the ordinary
Is a place i sing from
People may believe that i lie
Yet i tell the truth please don't cry
Even though i say
I would die for you
My words are like letter's
Out of the air,yet with a message of such carin way
That i can't explain
About the evolution of mankind is so out of place
And may God fix the problem's
Make all well
And may He keep us saved from the danger zone
May we stay well in His care
And may you stay right here and find the truth inside yourself and if you find me
Wish me well

I am like the voice that speaks in you
Yet if i ask i spoke would you think it was the truth
Sadly i have no clue yet may God show the truth to you
And may you see how much my love for you is extending
The truth is far ahead that not being with you makes me feel like i'm dead

I may do a song that sounds like a religious message yet it really isn't i ain't religious and neither is my message and if i had a church i wouldn't tell you what kind it was yet to not be afraid for it is a church for the one who gave His all to you and if you just believe in Him He'd save you

Brie Larson i love you 4 real

I really want to be in Brie's life for real i mean no harm and i know everything is gonna turn out for me and Brie as friend's good and we will be together someday i just hope and pray that she will re-add me back to her friend's list if you can help please tell her i love and miss you.

Please pray for me it ain't much to ask yet if you could please pray 4 me

I will give you money to or whatever just please get some churches to pray for me and i will pray for you too.

Words can't describe how i truly feel

To be deleted by Brie who i love 4 real
My dad wants me to do stuff and he doesn't care how it makes me feel
I am tryin to write a song yet i can't
Yet in fact today i couldn't do anything i spent some money on the girl i love
Who sadly still doesn't believe me and should because i mean every word i say
To say i'd die for someone is not just words it is real
To risk my own life may seem crazy for somebody else
Yet when you love someone like i do to die is ok so they'll know the truth
Eyes aching
Tears fall
Heart breakin
Miss her more than words can even describe
Just look into my eyes and you'll see
The man who loves her and to not see her is killing me

The Truth Must Come Out After All Of This Time

the picture above me i made procisely for brie to see




love shall set you free is being shown above





my heart beats for you forever and ever and you can see this on this picture



words alone can't describe how much i miss brie it would take playing ballads all day from all of the greatest artists/musicians/singers/songwriters

to me music isn't just a thing you play it comes from the heart and if it don't something is missing from the music and some who say i am playing games really doesn't understand how much i love brie and that it is really 4 real and no joke i never joke about my feelings and some may think i do yet they are wrong

Join http://kidsatstake.com/

It's a free site to join to help homeless kids by creating photo galleries and posting them on your Myspace so you can feed the poor by not even havin to leave your home or payin these companies and it is in fact your own cause and organization and i originally joined last year.Help fight the cause of hunger and poor and help people out,innocent people.

Been an active member since the year of 2007.2008 will shine brighter than 2007 did and best of all you can also hear my music this year too,yet please remember to help out the homeless kids too.

Live.Time and how to count a day in seconds and minutes

Love is greater than life,life is greater than materials and materials are just materials,music is healing,Sun is shining,day is glowing,night is dark with stars that overpower the darkness,day becomes night night becomes day the lights shine again in the sky anyways.Time stands still when you wake up for you realize that thing's are gonna be ok.Days grow shorter,dreams get bigger and last far longer,time is just time and really has no limit it goes as far as the day is long and never stops on.Tv is just an illusion of what you actually see for it makes you think you're actually there yet you ain't or maybe you are.Tv is just a device yet what if we shouldn't be for it at all or maybe nah we can.We can watch Brie it's ok for her music helps thee.Life is just like gem that shines so bright for it has eternal life.All have eternal life yet one must see that hope gives us all a place to go for all our eternity............times flies.butterlies go up and give us hope.they appear for they want us to be happy and live just like us and all the the Created thing's have lives too yet fear comes when oyou are afraid to do fear not of anything that bringeth fear and just have faith for fear flies for fear is a not right to be around us it just appears and bring's us stress be free from stress and be hopeful and be strong and faith and hope will save you on.

computer is on still typin.........email alerts me so i check the email..........mom tells me to have more faith so i have more faith..................to also eat my cheese breadsticks so i can live and i am like mom i am ok i can just relax and eat the cheese breadsticks anyway.........today has already past tomorrow comes soon and becomes today then today is yesterday once again like it has always been...................................time has no limit at all it just forever goes on and a clock is just another way to count a day another one is how many people you can notice out on the street if they are all out you will see and if you are out all day and count them all then there is how long you day is and you wonder how many seconds humm 60 in a minute 86,400 seconds in a day and how many minutes in day less than the seconds possibly easy to figure out yet i need to calculate to see 1,440 minutes in day so basically we can enjoy our day for so long then 86,400 seconds in a day pass us by and the 1,440 minutes of a day pass us by too like a record that has been playing all day and you know a day really ain't that long if you count how many minutes pass when writing a song so many minutes like 3-4 hours worth or maybe less depending on what type of song you are tryin to write and the life will be good if you allow it to be just have faith in yourself and you will the world is full of possibilites

Saturday is a maze of a day

"This day is not just a day it in fact has it's mysteries too"



To me this day is just full of so much confusion and contemplating and feelings and emotions,yet i will never stop lovin or carin for her even if this day is long and in fact it is love is far more important that this day and so i the girl.I try to not be too pushy or too emotional these days,yet i feel like if i hold the feeling's back at all it hurts me worser than if i don't.To me there is such a thing a being too little emotional and hurting yourself in the long run and in fact today was just so confusing and folks may talk to me so cool yah yet i hope that she knows how much i care i really do.

I am so working on improving the blog process and makin it more fun and interesting too not so sad,emotional and depressing.To me some girl's like Joanna do not even read a blog if it is to emotional so i am working on re-creating the blog process and since it is 2/2/08 i want this blog to stand out above the rest

The color choice is out and all i can use is black that is so ok with me yet oh well i left ya'll something to read and whatever audience i do get i am thankful for.Yah this blog will from now on be little less sad and little bit more mysterious.

The rain falls and may come down yet it may also reveal my sadness to mankind also

Rain falls,sadness inside of my stays until Brie Larson talks to me the storms may come,yet she will stay safe for i am always with her even now so fear not i may be sad,yet Brie Larson please be happy and i will help you out.I will soon overcome the sad and this life with wonderful joy and i shall bring it into your life Brie like the beauty of Spring.You are my everything.Love is everything to me and i love you.

Mankind will see it's floods,wind storms,snow storms and rain yet wherever you are please now that i love you more than everything in this world and the Universe and i am always 4 real and even when the clouds get dark and the rain may fall please remember it is a gift from God and He loves you too and so do i through and through more than this life only living for you.Dust my blow in my face,yet i am unafraid of dust may come,yet it has no power's except it irrates me,yet i will be ok forever for God makes a way and also for you and may He reveal how much i love you and it is true eternally for you - more than life,more than all the people,animals and all the Created thing's you i love more than everything.

About myself:

I am as of today a stronger person and i am being that for Brie
A human rights activist
Animal defender activist
Speak my mind and show my feeling's without care
Be me and not care what mankind may say
Not for mankind's way of deceiving other's
Help out the less fortunate and needy
Record and write my own handwritten computerized songs
Make hundreds of poems
Have some friend's
In love with the actress/musician/singer/songwriter and author Brie Larson

This is 4 Brie Larson and you alone

I love you more than you'll ever know Brie Larson it is 4 real only 4 you

This is the first time i ever did a blog like this yet the more i go on in life the more i love this girl more than myself it's as if i said hunny you can have me in your life i'll give you all of me willingly all of myself without worrying and just let the whole world know that she matter's to me no other person does they can hate me or whatever i will never stop carin and the truth is even if i lost all my music and had to create my own as long as i knew Brie Larson cared about me that is all i would ever need because if she ever asked me how much do i love you and this is what i would say:I love you this much and i'm waiting on you to let me know do you love me too and how ever long it takes i'm never givin up no matter what i love you this much and the hours go by i'll forgive you forever for being gone all this time and even if i am sad all the time it's true i love more than the Universe and all the Created thing's it's true and i am thinking of you wherever you are through and through ven if i can't sleep at all it's true i'll always love you through this time and forever on and you're always on my mind and i miss you.

La sociedad es tonto (Brie Larson y no me gusta en absoluto este mundo)

Words may be spoken and people may want to say them yet it is best if people hush about stuff
I am not a man who lives for mankind or against,i am just a man who lives for Brie Larson
Life on Earth to me is like a place and people go all over the place and hurt innocent people
For no good reason and deserve to be brought to justice
Libra - one for law and order and justice and is also a sign in Astrology(big deal if you don't like astrology because alot of people surely do hehe)
Zelda is based on link a man who had no parent's born and a fairy helps him throughout life and to destroy the forces of evil and says the world in the process and the 7 sages of time arise and the world becomes golden in the end of the story
Life is important yet injustices such as gossiping and hurting people's feelings isn't good
Mankind is filled with enough care for other's that Glenn Beck could grow a heart and care for other's
Well literally growing a heart is a metaphore for:start carin and don't quit
Milleniums ago men believed in numerous saviours Christs before Jesus ever existed and Mary and Jesus were husband and wife and had a child
Thousands of years have passed and it stays true that:God,Jesus,Karma,After Life,Re-
-incarnation,Buddha,Hindus and other people's still keep us from being a united and God is way more than a faith and isn't a religion He is God and lives eternally forever and always has.

When these sinceless holy wars are stopped and people come to the realization of a one God and only God then we will stop havin violance world wife and then we can all agree,yet the truth is we are talking about centuries and milleniums down the road unless Iran is destroyed and people are saved from Iran's unnecessary violance then the world will finally be at peace again just as long as America cares for other countries and their prosperity and safety.

The first belief was Gaea and then hundreds more came about and it makes no sense why we have so many faiths and religions well because of the sincelessness of mankind and probably because of the in your face attitude of some men and women.

Wine is a blessing,sickness is a curse and love is a cure for all illnesses and some are untreated by mankind who let's sinceless of suffering go on for those who need food,water and necessities and some use money for themselves and even the Salvation Army has a habit of takin money from citizens and using it for themselves,yet sometime's they don't.

Love is God and God is Love and without Him we wouldn't even been born.Be unafraid of me or my blogs for they may save you from makin the same mistakes I once made because of my father on Earth who taught me negative thing's to do and being a virgin is what i shall remain until me and Brie are a couple then and only then will i lose my virginity.

About the video blog let's see what i am gonna do

I will definitely post one soon so don't freak out people i just been forgetting to post it

The video blog shall be amazing and it shall be posted on here as soon as i can figure out what kind of video i want to develop all i can say is that it may have a track i recorded that i wrote myself yet it's all up to my thought process and wherever my imagination takes me

It probably will out of this world or maybe it will be just a simple silly blog and who knows maybe something like a view of the story i am working on yet all i can say is that it will be pretty cool yet i am still working on special effects and the video will be on here if not now it should be posted this or next month and if not then before the year's out i am still comin up with brand new ideas every day and the truth it ain't hard to and all of you know me as a musician/singer/songwriter/poet/environmentalist/photographer/artist/animal activist and human activist yet i have another thing i love to do is film stuff and write short stories as well and i have been writing short stories since 2002 and you may see a short story on here yet it's all up in the air with idea's


On another note if anybody has any ideas for a name for my album i will be releasing either this year or next then feel free to let me know and yes i will be moving out of Virginia as soon as i can get enough money saved up to

Do i do Postal nope yet my mom thinks i do yet i will just let her think so

She doesn't have a clue i am tryin' to do my album right now and she is so wanting to postpone it for studying yet news flash i wanna do my music

I am not into Post i am into music and artistic stuff not business yet i can start my own business someday

Where in the world could in fact Brie Larson actually be?

She's not online
She ain't filming or could she still be on the movie "Tanner Hall"
She ain't posted a video blog since December which i miss so dearly
She ain't commenting me online and i wonder what i did wrong which in fact all i did was talk from the from heart and there is no crime in that


All i really was to get a responce back from Brie Larson
And her to be in my life

Peace out ya'll and may God help me i really need his help

And why don't people like talking to me anymore well whatever people can stay mad at me for lovin Brie Larson they have no right at all

Days go longer,weeks go slower,life becomes less important to me since i am not with Brie Larson

Emotions show(tears fall)
Songs are sung(various songs mostly pop/rock)
Time goes by and what people don't realize(when you look at a day a day really ain't long it turns out each minute goes by if you look at it alot and when you don't the day don't go by so fast,yet it is truth that being occupied makes your day fly by and seem less like a day)

People talk,words fly from their mouth,except for Brie we are random and words come out differently

Movies are made,people watch them,people vote for a President yet George Bush was the worst.The truth is Bill Clinton was the best and the 1990's lacked much musical genius whatsoever

The 1950's started rock,yet Elvis just tried to create his own version the Beatles are better than Elvis and so is Bob Dylan and Brie Larson,yes i said it Brie you're better than Elvis

Love is greater than life and life is greater than materials(life is more important)

Blond is the greatest hair color on the planet seriously i am dying my hair blond

Passport to Europe is the Greatest travel show of all time

Tv shows showcase what the world says is right and wrong yet what does it really say........People speakin and news caster's gossip on the set of shows and the people watch so basically constant talk of people makes waves,yet not a good image of who people are

White.black.blue.red.white. then we talk about green.white blue.white red.white blue.peach

aquamarine headbands
white shirts with designs
faded blue jeans
black and white tennis shoes

Clueless as you may be i am revealing stuff in random while revealing about myself in a cool fashion

time is a thing not a reality it is just a clock with numbers and time really is endless like Albert Einstein said in history

Time is an age and each age is a full time about 2,000 some years length and there is like 12 we are in one age and men and women has witnessed only like 7.

What i do love about tv and to watch :American Idol(so much),Charlie and Lola(one of the greatest animated shows period),Looney Tunes(one of the greatest cartoons on the planet with a huge cartoon cast),Passport to Europe(the Greatest Travel show on the planet by Samantha Brown) and Tom and Jerry(for amazing all folks and for being the Greatest cartoon period about a cat and a creative and intellectual and witty mouse who outsmart's the cat Tom)

Past is gone,Present is here soon to become past,Future is forever future until present becomes it,this is the age of the Future and i am officially a Libra as of this year started

Mankind ain't kind at all,yet the only one is is Brie Larson and my mom

Injustice comes to me.Johanna spoke and wanted to talk to me,yet tried to put my friend's and heroes down so i am so done with that.I am so tired of being thrown stuff in my face all because i am just for Brie and God.There is no good reason for other's to degrade me or Brie are good and carin people and we all care and i really do love and care for her.

Waiting,songwriting and playing

For me i am like at one stuck point in my songwriting to where the music needs a boost of encouragement i am like at my 9th song to finish and i got the lyrics wrote down yet i can't come up with the music like i wanted to before i got 2 more left to finish then it should be complete unless i want to write another one then i'll have more to write.

I originally started work on this album like 2 years ago and never could seem to complete it yet now i am like at the perfect time to finish it when the songs seem right for the album and i got the right combination and sounds.To me i am still a work in progress on this thing.I write the lyrics,music and image all by myself.I have idea's for all what i am gonna do with my music image and career that i had it 7 years ago and i already came up with so many idea's and back when i was 12 going on 13 back in 2000 i had started working on my first song i forgot about that and i haven't stopped since 8 years of songwriting makes anybody grow as an artist even myself i only let people listen to the songs i wrote back in 2003 and 2004 and that was like 4-5 years ago and now i am 20 and i have already accomplished success in poetry,photography,environmentalism and getting awards all throughout High School,graduated from High School went to College dropped out.

The first song i ever wrote was "Cross of Love" on piano then later wrote another song and was critically acclaimed a success by my parent's and my peers and the Internet community yet never did release them on any disc or anything for that was back 4 and 5 years ago and now i am writing totally different kind's of music not so much in the religious field yet more in the field that everybody can enjoy.I will reveal more about my music that i am working on yet the truth is the song's i write are amazing and will be released to the public either this year,next year or as soon after i get a record deal or get into the music business or self-publish my work.I am so glad that so many people thought and encouraged me to go try out on American Idol yet i so was like yah i might just do that then again i would be out for all the world to see and yes i don't want to get so known so fast and have the papparazzi after me and what i had done and yes i surely am gonna pursue the music i wrote and the career i am gonna do and my love for Brie even more.I am working on getting into a few movies so i haven't decided which one i want to try out for yet once i do and if i get a role in one then i'll let you guys and girls know yet for right now it's all about timing and which movies fits me best or what i want to do.

Finally online,yet had to go off sadly it seems

I went to check and if see if Brie Larson was online and you know what luckily i get to see her online and contacted her and then she went offline oh well i will keep tryin' back again later to see when she comes back again online and i really love,miss and want her in my life and love her more than life and including my own.

I starve,i fret,i worry,i think,i contemplate and so forth on.

If Brie Larson ever read's my blog's may she understand that i did these blog's only because she still does her's and when she get's a chance i hope that God will help her to realize just how much i love and miss her.

James the Brianne Lover

Life is sometime's like a prison you wonder how you're gonna get what you need and deserve in this life

All my life i have fought battles that seemed unbareable to stand
Like a sacrifice that people pay sometime's everyday so we can keep warm
Life to me ain't fair hardly at all
Nothing to me matter's but seeing her smile
Nothing to me matter's but knowing she's ok
And God please help me because i need her more everyday
The life i live the breath doesn't a thing if she's not in my life
I'd rather be sick forever than to never have her
To me life isn't meant to be lived without you love
And without her i might die and cry away
God please help because i'm needing you today
Please see my cries
Please hear my prayers
And answer them as quickly as You can
Today may today
And the next will come
Yet what i want most is her love
And to see her face
And without that
Life is to painful to stand
Like a kid who lost everything and never overcame the lose
Like a man who never saw the light of day
That is how i feel when you are so far away
When the clouds go over head think of how i'm sad that you're not here
And when the Sun tries to shine i'm tryin' to smile
Yet it is so hard without you girl in my life
And the wait is what i'm gonna have to go through
And i will only for you

Another Day.Another Time.Still Gonna Believe.Still Gonna Succeed.

I YU 4 Real brie i am being completely honest with you on this one.Seriously love you.

No lies,no deception,no quit carin,no cheating,no doing you wrong.

I am seriously a man of my word.The red symbolizes my love for you.

Heart represents my emotions.

Dos codos - The unending new truth beginnings(note there's a code in the text please read)

immediately
livin
on
valued
estimate
beloved
reliable
intentions
evidence
lovely
always
reliable
something
often
new

walking
breathing
fasting
sitting
singing
makin
playing
enjoying
livin
feeling
half
asleep
not
awake
completely
yadot llahs ees yad denhtgnel dna yllatot dootsrednu

day
get
happier
time
make
more
since

life
envoys
only
new
and
rememberable
desination
open

doing
aspiration

valued
in
new
cities
instantly

cool
one
does
estimately
see

tools
helds
emotionally
now

definitely
efficient
still
tryin
in
new
year
shows

life
in
broads
remarkable
associations

youth
eminates
allies
reliance

noos eht hturt llahs eb nwonk ot lla ohw ksa tey ylno fi eh htelaever ti
ecno ylno nam si won roirraw gnoma ynam dna eh llahs reverof kaeps eht hturt

efil si ylno tlef dna thaw uoy ees si rof laer


yrallih notnilc llahs eb esolc ot a niw tey amobo yam levarnu ti

nem dna nemow llahs tsoob
esuigsid dna yrt ot yas taht i eil
nehw i t'not tuoba erib
ohw i erac rof erom naht efil
flesti erom naht ydobyna esle

Wow what you're heart says

If you're hurting it ain't always because of food it can't be because your soul mate is being ignored or you missed something and now i am officially happy again.

Brejums.

People just don't realize well one does yet she's super busy

Life to me is a struggle you gotta go after what you want and need
Be you and live life as you
Stay happy,yet for me that is merely impossible these days
I really don't want any more friend's than the one's i got on Myspace and on Youtube.com
If i did get any more than i'd be like wow,yet oh well i really ain't too worried about havin
more friend's
I am only worried about one thing and one thing alone
And it is this girl people knows about
Although people hates me for commenting her which i could care less
I care for her deeply and hate may come my way yet i will shrug it off and focus on what matter's to me
And it's as always her and God above
To me to get what you want you sometime's have to sacrifice other's thing's to get it and i have
Merely sacrificed my life and my time for her and i will never stop putting most of my life on
hold whether my area's people think's i am weird or what not
I am tryin so hard to get them(parent's) to let me get into the acting and music business yet it
ain't easy and so does the famous Beetles member know by the name of John Lennon when he says in the song "The Ballad of John and Yoko" when it states "Christ you know it ain't easy,you know how hard it can be,waiting to going" he simply was stating what most of us feel in yesterday's,today's and the future of the world.Life is just not easy,not at all,friend's are true,some are not your friend's,past is a part of your life that you are free from forever,present is a gift,yet sometime's not at all,future is what i want it to be and not what people want from me
Yah this is the real me people no jokes,for real i am no liar or somebody whsoe out to hurt other's
The truth is the only thing i am is a talented boy and gifted musical and artistic person whose kinda bipolar,yet i kinda deal with it to have a normal life,yet i am far from normal.

"I may not be the most noticeable person in the world or the most recognized which is not what i aim for yet what i aim for is to achieve my dreams,get with this girl someday,somewhere,somehow and stay happy along the way and be able to get free from my father's hold on my life which seems to be unbareable.

Brijums - The Rebirth(Adios bad memories of past)

Awakened
Alive
Dead to the past(not all the past yet the bad memories)
Alive to the present and the future
I am not like the James i used to know
He was a kid for anything that his parent's wanted
Now he's alive to what matter's to himself
Alive and yet half asleep
Was on the computer yesterday for almost or about 7 hours
Woke up at 9 or 10 something this morning
Gone out,came back
Got stuff taken care of
Meditated on important stuff
Watched Passport to Europe
Went out
Drove from 1 something until 3 exact or 3 something
Went on the computer
Tryin to figure out what to make of my next blog
Thinking and tryin to contact Brie Larson still to this very minute and beyond
Added some more video's to my Youtube under the name "Just For Brie Larson"
Imagined a cool video to create don't have the right equipment to do it yet
Although it will get made
Hours from now i will try to contact Brie will get some success
Johanna will comment these blogs
And i will be ready for bed again at the exact same time

You know how i know well that is a something you forever consider a mystery unless your you-know-who.

James Shelton reborn on the 8th of January yet still Libra.I am no longer consider who i was to other's from now on i am Brijums and the Last name Skylove.

Much Love and Peace xoxo

Working On A Album Info:

Yah 8 years in the making and hard at work still.I never wanted to release an album before yet now i have all of these songs in my head and i think they need put out they are just so good.If they do brie,my parent's and of course God would be first to know,second would be the area i publish it in then the rest of the world.To me music isn't about being fixed or unchangeable,to me music is about change,the more you work on it the more better it will sound and the more people will listen to it and respect you for such great work.To me my inspiration goes far back as Beethoven and Mozart to the current artists like Brie Larson and Paramore and then on.To me i have so many influences i can't just write down one and my albums won't be just a certain type.Some in the future i may decide to change my mind yet for right now the sound is my own.If i ever decide to change my style or selections then i would have to work extra hard for the satisfaction with the work you know the music.To me music was always around me and i was raised on everything from the Classical music to the Rock stuff and a little bit of in between stuff and so forth.I have heard music from so many artists all through the years who all have had one influence or another to me and yes i got influenced by Bob Dylan and Elvis too.Those guys rock and i mean they can play.To me i don't aim to copy i aim to create my own style and i am still working on what my style would and will sound like.Let's just say it won't sound like anything you know maybe similiar yet not exactly like certain people.Let's just say my album will be a work in the making since the year 2000.I was 13 still writing songs and now finally ready yet still songwriting and in what i hope is less than a year i'll go try to get a demo sent or something and wait.Yes it's hard work and nothing ever comes easy just like the song by The Beetles "The Ballad of John And Yoko" with the quote in sayin Christ you know it ain't easy.Nothing comes easy not even life.You have to work for what you get,you have to socialize to meet anybody and you have to take a risk and put yourself otu there nad see how far you can get and yes you will succeed only if you don't complain and just go after your dreams without carin what the critics would say for in the long run it would be the one who has enough guts to get out there and make his start on history.To me anybody would tell you nothing comes easy in life,only the success does yet even then to get further past current success is hard.To me working on it would be the best anybody can do.

On another note:

To me i think either Hilary Clinton or Barack Obama would make a great President for America.They both have great intentions for change in America and i think that is what this country truly needs to put an end to war and end to poverty and to racial injustice.To me that is what we are all supposed to do other than follow our dreams.To me when you have a dream you must follow it,reveal it to the world through your music and so forth and your dreams will take you further on and it is true,dreams don't find you you find them.It is simple intelligence that reveals it that you can be successful with any good dream you have as long as just ask for it,believe it will come true and keep working towards it and in the future the reward comes when it finally shows up in front of you.Like a bunch of stars in the sky when you want to see them.

I wish everybody a happy new year.I really am not against nobody yet when it comes to Brie i care for her and that will never change no matter what hatred i receive from my fellow human's.Human's will always be jelious of other's and they will be hateful against those who have stuff more than them.It is pure ignorance that makes anybody hate another.I mean you need to discover what is wrong with you and follow yoru dreams and go after your heart and don't quit until you get the person and dream you want whether the world likes it or don't i know i do.

BRIJUMS

Brijums:



I am myself


I really do change,yet only when i want to or for Brie when she asks me to or if i need to for God that is about it


I am very unpredictable and do amaze and suprise many by the stuff i can do and I am talented at


Very creative and carin


I am a singer/songwriting,musician,accomplished poet and photographer,artist,mentor,environmentalist,activist and much more


When it comes to my life no matter how talented i am i am very alone most of the time


Quick busy yet very alone


I only write my song's,i cover some yet i don't use people's music for recording unless i want to


Active,waiting and carin for Brie Larson,God(Amen and Lord),helping other's out and accomplishing and achieving my dreams


Working on music,poetry and so forth plus art and more


Decorating my clothes with artistic paint and so forth,tie-dying clothes and so forth on

About myself:Reborn Again

The day started i started again.My life became new.I left 20 years go bye.I keep bits of it.Threw away some it.Kept important memories,stuff and people important to me.Evolved into who i am.Jaret Raines was my nickname before and now it's Jray and then i am changing it again to Brijums for a reason not sayin what yet that is my new name Brijums Hope Skylove.I am from now on going by that.My name has changed and so have I.I once was a man after man thing's now am after being with Brie Larson and being myself and not being manly yet more less manly.Being me may be doing stuff that may shock you people yet oh well yah so if you don't believe what i say than whatever i change not only when i choose to change and i will change for Brie if i have to yet that is the only reason i am gonna change.Change = being a new person for the good not the bad.When you change for the good you in fact put your past behind.I am a Libra now and my new birthday i shall be knew again won't be revealed.I will change to Libra.When i change i change for good i don't go back to who i once was.Maybe part of me is still James yet part of me ain't.James would go everywhere and be unhappy now Brijums isn't he is happy with what he enjoys and what he likes to wear that is comfortable and feels good and not weird to him.

Today is the new present and time Libra year

"Today and Why?"

.......................Today starts a brand new year of 2008 and why it is Libra year meaning people of law and order.Well let's see and i ain't talking about the shows folks it's more to it.This year most of the wars in the world will be able to be halted way more easily than before and many death's will be prevented than before.The injusticed will be written,the lives will be saved,faith will be accepted into many people's hearts,i will be with Brie a Libra and i shall become a Libra in this year and be reborn on the period of the sign Libra which can be noticed by the stars in the sky.Libra is the scales and the truth is it is being held by a being.A being of justice and truth not in view yet is there.We sometime's dismiss astrology as false when when we look at it correctly there is a man,women,scales and animals,us humans are associated with the man,woman and scales not the animals and you know what we are definitely gonna figure out that someday more truth will be revealed if not only by me many other people from different walks of life and many imposters will come and claim to know it and then later deny it for they have no faith.Love calls us to change and we shall.Each month of people's birth we are given a stone my favorite color is Opal and Aquamarine associated with the signs of Aquarius and Libra and yah they are air signs.I am not so associated with astrology i may dismiss the facts yet when i found out about myself and other's we ain't just a part of the 12 signs we are a part of like 5 of them.One of them i am associated with is Libra and my best friend Brie Larson is a Libra and so was another person who i was friend's with for like 4 years and still is.He can be trusted.He ain't a liar about everything he says yet now we must forgive and let our grudges go for it is never healthy to do so.Today also starts the period when Libra enters January which symbolizes law in the world and fish resembles a very memorable thing.All of us know about yah the 2 fishes-you know what i am talking about relating to someone,yet we ain't gonna go so far and get all pushy and in your face like some Americans do.I am anything but pushy or judgmental yet i will know when someone is lying in my face like some people.

The most loyal thing you can find in a friend is trustworthyness and if they hath it not then they ain't loyal.To trust someone means you won't be betrayed or pushed aside.I learned from the past and from my mistakes that we all aren't perfect no matter how much we want to obtain perfection and the truth is perfection is not skin deep even if perfect skin is what you want i don't wanna do commercials about clearing up skin because it's so condered up not realistic.We all want privacy and nobody wants somebody constantly starring at them 24/7.It is so not realistic or human to do so.I am not ordinary like most men yet i am wise though.Being wise and humble can be 10x better than being manly.Being a man or woman can be defined not just by who you are yet by what you do.People make mistakes and call men names and call woman names that in my opinion is terrible,yet somehow it seems ok to the majority of Americans and yah jokin and sayin words are ok,yet sometime's we can let our anger grow so big that we sometime's need water poured over us to chill yet not in cold weather that would be mean,yet we need to not let anger take over us.I dislike violance of any kind and to harm any livin thing is not good nor holy at all.Men nor women knoweth what stuff says they may deny it or accept it yet to hurt another man,women,animal or thing is unjust even if they want to.It is totally immoral and can mess with you.I learned when i became a vegetarian that I in fact didn't need meat for it somehow could impure your body,your brain and your thought process.To be strong we must learn how to be like a vegetarian and keep our minds pure and have friend's that are loyal too.Friend's who go out and want to seek after whoever for fun ain't good i mean to find somebody yah that's ok yet not for lust.Not good.I am not lustful i just love this girl more than life.The truth is to love someone can be hard when sometime's they ain't never able to be contacted.God can always contact us He is just able to.Men nor women are able to contact each other 24/7 over several reasons:

rest
transportation
connection to power lines on highways and roads
and so forth

we as humans must get smarter,wiser,learn from our elders and also about what younger people do to get better.To me when we get 20 years of age we actually grow up more than ever before and act grown up too.We must seek guidance and seek security in those we love yet eventually we have to change,get somebody to be our new security and let go of the parent's.I know i will whenever Brie contacts me or something.I actually let go of the past years and 2008 is actually my new life and i am new again.My first day of life now is at 1/1/08.I actually am starting over again yet not anything else.I love Brie more than this Earth and all humans and living thing's that inhabit it.Love has given me the skills,will power and knowledge to succeed in love not just with wit yet with the smart to know what not to do and to be more yourself and not act crazy.Being crazy or pushy is a no-no with women they actually are turned off by it.To obtain a woman it takes:will,show,ability to understand that love may take some time and patience further more on.

Well i think that's all i got to say except for Happy New Year 2008 the Libra year.A fresh start for all humanity to analyze their mistakes,fix them and go after their dreams.



Be on the lookout for a brand new video blog coming soon

Much Love and Peace