This is probably gonna be my last blog on this site

I don't feel like doing the blogspot thing anymore at the moment if you want to contact me do so at my current profile on myspace:http://myspace.com/jray4real if you want to know something i may not say because i ain't nyb no offense yet i am so private right now with who i am the past is not me i may still do music yet i am not sayin for that gives away too much.

They Got Alot Of NERVE(What's up with the world)

I tried re-adding her yet no luck
So wanting to discard of my blogspot site,the myspace accounts and the youtube one also and i am not gonna probably tell anybody what i do next i really can't just like go out on the internet and speak my heart out some think of it as an offense not as a good presence you know

january is over,february should've been gone and march should resurrect the time of me and brie i am so tired of being myself anymore and being tired of the curse that my last name hangs on me it is such a tragedy my last name exists and that i am not some place else one place to say yet the next time i talk to brie i hope to God i will for i love her more than this life and i just wanna die sometime's

I hate being alive yet why hate being alive

Yet if you was me and was in my shoes you would too

Mankind = Unkind

I am so tired of my brain for it is driving me insane

Think what you want,yet i am not happy

The world throws me left and right my body feels like it's chained up

I am so tired of life and the fact that Virginia is becoming more of a curse

than a blessing

I blame no one but the people in my area for that

My cousins disowned me and my father is unjust yet oh well people can stay that way just leave me out of their sick ways

Yah i've changed and so has my music yet what has the same is how i feeeeeeel about brie God have mercy you know me please i dislike like i have had a hard time even getting a relationship even back when i was a teenager why am i even alive if i am not with brie why should i even have to suffer why do you allow me to why can't i just break the chains and go see her and people who know her just leave me alone

Route:Into the unknown(a story of one man who wants to talk to her,yet sadly is havin a difficult time)

A state of mind
Not far beyond from out of the ordinary
Is a place i sing from
People may believe that i lie
Yet i tell the truth please don't cry
Even though i say
I would die for you
My words are like letter's
Out of the air,yet with a message of such carin way
That i can't explain
About the evolution of mankind is so out of place
And may God fix the problem's
Make all well
And may He keep us saved from the danger zone
May we stay well in His care
And may you stay right here and find the truth inside yourself and if you find me
Wish me well

I am like the voice that speaks in you
Yet if i ask i spoke would you think it was the truth
Sadly i have no clue yet may God show the truth to you
And may you see how much my love for you is extending
The truth is far ahead that not being with you makes me feel like i'm dead

I may do a song that sounds like a religious message yet it really isn't i ain't religious and neither is my message and if i had a church i wouldn't tell you what kind it was yet to not be afraid for it is a church for the one who gave His all to you and if you just believe in Him He'd save you

Brie Larson i love you 4 real

I really want to be in Brie's life for real i mean no harm and i know everything is gonna turn out for me and Brie as friend's good and we will be together someday i just hope and pray that she will re-add me back to her friend's list if you can help please tell her i love and miss you.

Please pray for me it ain't much to ask yet if you could please pray 4 me

I will give you money to or whatever just please get some churches to pray for me and i will pray for you too.

Words can't describe how i truly feel

To be deleted by Brie who i love 4 real
My dad wants me to do stuff and he doesn't care how it makes me feel
I am tryin to write a song yet i can't
Yet in fact today i couldn't do anything i spent some money on the girl i love
Who sadly still doesn't believe me and should because i mean every word i say
To say i'd die for someone is not just words it is real
To risk my own life may seem crazy for somebody else
Yet when you love someone like i do to die is ok so they'll know the truth
Eyes aching
Tears fall
Heart breakin
Miss her more than words can even describe
Just look into my eyes and you'll see
The man who loves her and to not see her is killing me

The Truth Must Come Out After All Of This Time

the picture above me i made procisely for brie to see




love shall set you free is being shown above





my heart beats for you forever and ever and you can see this on this picture



words alone can't describe how much i miss brie it would take playing ballads all day from all of the greatest artists/musicians/singers/songwriters

to me music isn't just a thing you play it comes from the heart and if it don't something is missing from the music and some who say i am playing games really doesn't understand how much i love brie and that it is really 4 real and no joke i never joke about my feelings and some may think i do yet they are wrong