This is probably gonna be my last blog on this site

I don't feel like doing the blogspot thing anymore at the moment if you want to contact me do so at my current profile on myspace:http://myspace.com/jray4real if you want to know something i may not say because i ain't nyb no offense yet i am so private right now with who i am the past is not me i may still do music yet i am not sayin for that gives away too much.

They Got Alot Of NERVE(What's up with the world)

I tried re-adding her yet no luck
So wanting to discard of my blogspot site,the myspace accounts and the youtube one also and i am not gonna probably tell anybody what i do next i really can't just like go out on the internet and speak my heart out some think of it as an offense not as a good presence you know

january is over,february should've been gone and march should resurrect the time of me and brie i am so tired of being myself anymore and being tired of the curse that my last name hangs on me it is such a tragedy my last name exists and that i am not some place else one place to say yet the next time i talk to brie i hope to God i will for i love her more than this life and i just wanna die sometime's

I hate being alive yet why hate being alive

Yet if you was me and was in my shoes you would too

Mankind = Unkind

I am so tired of my brain for it is driving me insane

Think what you want,yet i am not happy

The world throws me left and right my body feels like it's chained up

I am so tired of life and the fact that Virginia is becoming more of a curse

than a blessing

I blame no one but the people in my area for that

My cousins disowned me and my father is unjust yet oh well people can stay that way just leave me out of their sick ways

Yah i've changed and so has my music yet what has the same is how i feeeeeeel about brie God have mercy you know me please i dislike like i have had a hard time even getting a relationship even back when i was a teenager why am i even alive if i am not with brie why should i even have to suffer why do you allow me to why can't i just break the chains and go see her and people who know her just leave me alone

Route:Into the unknown(a story of one man who wants to talk to her,yet sadly is havin a difficult time)

A state of mind
Not far beyond from out of the ordinary
Is a place i sing from
People may believe that i lie
Yet i tell the truth please don't cry
Even though i say
I would die for you
My words are like letter's
Out of the air,yet with a message of such carin way
That i can't explain
About the evolution of mankind is so out of place
And may God fix the problem's
Make all well
And may He keep us saved from the danger zone
May we stay well in His care
And may you stay right here and find the truth inside yourself and if you find me
Wish me well

I am like the voice that speaks in you
Yet if i ask i spoke would you think it was the truth
Sadly i have no clue yet may God show the truth to you
And may you see how much my love for you is extending
The truth is far ahead that not being with you makes me feel like i'm dead

I may do a song that sounds like a religious message yet it really isn't i ain't religious and neither is my message and if i had a church i wouldn't tell you what kind it was yet to not be afraid for it is a church for the one who gave His all to you and if you just believe in Him He'd save you

Brie Larson i love you 4 real

I really want to be in Brie's life for real i mean no harm and i know everything is gonna turn out for me and Brie as friend's good and we will be together someday i just hope and pray that she will re-add me back to her friend's list if you can help please tell her i love and miss you.

Please pray for me it ain't much to ask yet if you could please pray 4 me

I will give you money to or whatever just please get some churches to pray for me and i will pray for you too.

Words can't describe how i truly feel

To be deleted by Brie who i love 4 real
My dad wants me to do stuff and he doesn't care how it makes me feel
I am tryin to write a song yet i can't
Yet in fact today i couldn't do anything i spent some money on the girl i love
Who sadly still doesn't believe me and should because i mean every word i say
To say i'd die for someone is not just words it is real
To risk my own life may seem crazy for somebody else
Yet when you love someone like i do to die is ok so they'll know the truth
Eyes aching
Tears fall
Heart breakin
Miss her more than words can even describe
Just look into my eyes and you'll see
The man who loves her and to not see her is killing me

The Truth Must Come Out After All Of This Time

the picture above me i made procisely for brie to see




love shall set you free is being shown above





my heart beats for you forever and ever and you can see this on this picture



words alone can't describe how much i miss brie it would take playing ballads all day from all of the greatest artists/musicians/singers/songwriters

to me music isn't just a thing you play it comes from the heart and if it don't something is missing from the music and some who say i am playing games really doesn't understand how much i love brie and that it is really 4 real and no joke i never joke about my feelings and some may think i do yet they are wrong

Join http://kidsatstake.com/

It's a free site to join to help homeless kids by creating photo galleries and posting them on your Myspace so you can feed the poor by not even havin to leave your home or payin these companies and it is in fact your own cause and organization and i originally joined last year.Help fight the cause of hunger and poor and help people out,innocent people.

Been an active member since the year of 2007.2008 will shine brighter than 2007 did and best of all you can also hear my music this year too,yet please remember to help out the homeless kids too.

Live.Time and how to count a day in seconds and minutes

Love is greater than life,life is greater than materials and materials are just materials,music is healing,Sun is shining,day is glowing,night is dark with stars that overpower the darkness,day becomes night night becomes day the lights shine again in the sky anyways.Time stands still when you wake up for you realize that thing's are gonna be ok.Days grow shorter,dreams get bigger and last far longer,time is just time and really has no limit it goes as far as the day is long and never stops on.Tv is just an illusion of what you actually see for it makes you think you're actually there yet you ain't or maybe you are.Tv is just a device yet what if we shouldn't be for it at all or maybe nah we can.We can watch Brie it's ok for her music helps thee.Life is just like gem that shines so bright for it has eternal life.All have eternal life yet one must see that hope gives us all a place to go for all our eternity............times flies.butterlies go up and give us hope.they appear for they want us to be happy and live just like us and all the the Created thing's have lives too yet fear comes when oyou are afraid to do fear not of anything that bringeth fear and just have faith for fear flies for fear is a not right to be around us it just appears and bring's us stress be free from stress and be hopeful and be strong and faith and hope will save you on.

computer is on still typin.........email alerts me so i check the email..........mom tells me to have more faith so i have more faith..................to also eat my cheese breadsticks so i can live and i am like mom i am ok i can just relax and eat the cheese breadsticks anyway.........today has already past tomorrow comes soon and becomes today then today is yesterday once again like it has always been...................................time has no limit at all it just forever goes on and a clock is just another way to count a day another one is how many people you can notice out on the street if they are all out you will see and if you are out all day and count them all then there is how long you day is and you wonder how many seconds humm 60 in a minute 86,400 seconds in a day and how many minutes in day less than the seconds possibly easy to figure out yet i need to calculate to see 1,440 minutes in day so basically we can enjoy our day for so long then 86,400 seconds in a day pass us by and the 1,440 minutes of a day pass us by too like a record that has been playing all day and you know a day really ain't that long if you count how many minutes pass when writing a song so many minutes like 3-4 hours worth or maybe less depending on what type of song you are tryin to write and the life will be good if you allow it to be just have faith in yourself and you will the world is full of possibilites

Saturday is a maze of a day

"This day is not just a day it in fact has it's mysteries too"



To me this day is just full of so much confusion and contemplating and feelings and emotions,yet i will never stop lovin or carin for her even if this day is long and in fact it is love is far more important that this day and so i the girl.I try to not be too pushy or too emotional these days,yet i feel like if i hold the feeling's back at all it hurts me worser than if i don't.To me there is such a thing a being too little emotional and hurting yourself in the long run and in fact today was just so confusing and folks may talk to me so cool yah yet i hope that she knows how much i care i really do.

I am so working on improving the blog process and makin it more fun and interesting too not so sad,emotional and depressing.To me some girl's like Joanna do not even read a blog if it is to emotional so i am working on re-creating the blog process and since it is 2/2/08 i want this blog to stand out above the rest

The color choice is out and all i can use is black that is so ok with me yet oh well i left ya'll something to read and whatever audience i do get i am thankful for.Yah this blog will from now on be little less sad and little bit more mysterious.

The rain falls and may come down yet it may also reveal my sadness to mankind also

Rain falls,sadness inside of my stays until Brie Larson talks to me the storms may come,yet she will stay safe for i am always with her even now so fear not i may be sad,yet Brie Larson please be happy and i will help you out.I will soon overcome the sad and this life with wonderful joy and i shall bring it into your life Brie like the beauty of Spring.You are my everything.Love is everything to me and i love you.

Mankind will see it's floods,wind storms,snow storms and rain yet wherever you are please now that i love you more than everything in this world and the Universe and i am always 4 real and even when the clouds get dark and the rain may fall please remember it is a gift from God and He loves you too and so do i through and through more than this life only living for you.Dust my blow in my face,yet i am unafraid of dust may come,yet it has no power's except it irrates me,yet i will be ok forever for God makes a way and also for you and may He reveal how much i love you and it is true eternally for you - more than life,more than all the people,animals and all the Created thing's you i love more than everything.